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Being Self Aware

In book, No Law, Personal Development, Uncategorized on March 12, 2020 at 9:01 am

NOW! I’m not even going to pretend to sit here and try to convey to you that I am a perfect person, or that I embody the No Law principles that I write about in my book 100% of the time, every day, in every situation. I would be lying. What I am hoping to show you through the writing in my book, is that by trying to live my life by the No Law principles, I have found myself to be happier, more energetic, and more tolerable to be around. When I began writing the book, No Law, I often had the thought: “who am I to write this book.” And given that it is based in scripture, once again, I had the same thought. “Who am I to write a book based on scripture?” I’m not a Biblical scholar—far from it. I had to do extensive research on the No Law principles and came across verses in the Bible that I never knew existed. If you were to sit across from me and ask me to quote verses verbatim or even where to find answers to your questions in the Bible, you’d likely receive a “deer in headlights” look from me.

I’m not a pastor. Far from it. I’ve been asked before why I am not more active in my church. My answer, “I like to drink beer, I sometimes listen to explicit music, and I often use foul language in casual conversation.” For so many years, I have felt that God cannot use someone like me to spread his word. I’ve come to realize that God uses so many people with a “checkered past” worse than anything that I have done throughout history to lead others to Christ. So why not me?

So, I’m basically a boring, ordinary person. Just like others in this world that may or may not consider themselves to be a Christian, who has had to deal with this thing called life. Which now makes me think: “Who am I to not write a book?” “Who would I be if I did not try to reach out and help someone that just needed some insight?” Who would I be if I did not provide some examples of how I got through a low point in my life that could help others get through the lows in their life? That is why I wrote No Law. I wrote the book for myself as much as for anyone else hat is gracious enough to pick up a copy of my book No Law. I wrote it for my children, who I know that I have led astray in the proper way to compose oneself and interact with society. I wrote the book for the person who feels they have nothing left to live for. I wrote No Law for the person that has everything the world can give them, yet they still feel unfulfilled. I wrote the book for middle-aged men who are miserable inside but are too damn stubborn to talk to anyone about it because it leaves them feeling weak and vulnerable. I wrote my book for you, but mostly, I wrote the book for me. Because sometimes I still feel unfulfilled, angry, jealous, weak, vulnerable, etc.

I am very aware of who I am and who I am not. I don’t pretend to be an expert in the subject matter, nor am I a biblical scholar. I am simply a man that went through a rough patch in life, and would like to help any of you who may be going through something similar.